I've been doing a lot of reflecting in the last few days. One year ago today I was completely oblivious to the events that would be occurring in the week. My life as I knew it was about to be blown into smithereens. I was about to go from wife to single mother, captive in my man-made mess to free, miserable to unmistakably happy. God is so good and so faithful.
The last year I was all over the place emotionally. Last February I was a shell of myself. Dead inside. I had nothing left to give to myself because I had spent the last 14 years of my life giving and giving and never receiving. I was tapped out. Dry. Today my life is so full it's juicy. My cup runneth over.
I could seriously cry, I am so grateful. Every time I think of where I've been and where I can go now, I quietly whisper a thank you to my wasband. Thank God he loved me enough to let me go. Thank God he saw what I was too afraid to admit. Because of him, I have a life and love that I never knew to pray for or even dream of. Yes, you read that right. I have love in my life. Glorious love.
One year ago today, I was more than likely sitting in my room alone, drowning my sorrows away with a large glass of liquid misery and settling for where I was. If you were here now, you'd be on my beautiful, tree covered deck, sipping a diet coke in the sunshine, listening to music, grilling our dinner. God is so good.
I don't know where you are in your life or where you want to be, but the one thing I want people to learn from my life is to dream and dream BIG. Never settle for just okay. If you are unhappy, find a way to be happy. We get one life, don't waste it.
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